My life as of recently.

I am currently reading Watchmen. I decided to pick it as my book club with my sistas because none of my sisters ever been into the comic books scene and I thought it would be edgy. I was going to pick Y! The Last Man because that series is effing amazing, but I decided to pick one that I haven't read before (so I don't accidentally give away plot points from later books. Plus, Watchmen is one book and not a series). So far it is... alright. With all the hype from it I thought it would be so amazing, but so far if I didn't pick it for book club I would probably stop reading it. In addition to reading Watchmen I am also reading the second to last installment of the Outlander Series (which is a series about a WWII time traveling nurse!) and so far that one is pretty good. The way it is written seems overly wordy and elaborate on details that have no pertinence to the story, but they are entertaining enough.

Last night I went to show featuring Peter's band, Knife Tornado, at Club Vegas. He's in a metal band, and although I don't mind the drums and the guitars I hate the screaming/singing. I've heard Peter play me some songs on his drums at his house but this was the first time I saw him perform (well perform non Taiko drums), and it was quite exhilarating. All of their songs were incredibly powerful and energetic and they would have been pretty cool if they would just stop screaming and sing instead! But also, last night was the first time I met pretty much all of Peter's friends. Over the years that I've known him he would always say things like "oh hey we should hang out with so-and-so" and then it just wouldn't happen. I use to feel like he didn't think I was cool enough to meet his other friends, but dunno then I got to know him better and that seemed a silly assumption. It was an odd feeling meeting his friends. He always talks about so and so and naturally I envision an idea of what they look like and what I imagined Logan (one of his friends that he talks about all the time) to look like was almost exactly as he was, whereas with Paul (another one he talks about always) was nothing at all what I thought he would look like.

Today I had a physics exam. (I know, right? Go to a concert the night before your exam? Not the wisest. But Peter should give me super props for being so dedicated to the cause!) I think I did fairly well on the exam, there was one problem though that I thought was insanely ridiculous and I was worried that whatever way I was trying to solve it was excessive and a way round about way of solving it. I felt so bad though, on our exams we circle which TA we go to for discussion so we can get the exams returned and my TA, Rhett, is a pretty good TA but one day he was sick and this other TA, Ren, substituted for him and the way he taught was waaaay easier for me to understand than for Rhett so I decided to go to Ren's class but when I turned in my exam today Rhett was there and he was asking about how I thought I did and he freakin' knew my name. I mean, most TAs don't bother learning names and might recognize you by how you look, but sigh, he knew my name and I had an exam that the other TA's name was circled. He was like "oh, did you mean to circle me?" and I was like "Um.. no.." to say the least it was awkward and I felt bad making him feel like he wasn't a good teacher or something.

Let's see, what else? My friend Ziv has been trying to play match maker with me. At first he wanted to set me up with one of his friends because his friend "likes big boobs" and I was like "ehhh, I don't think so." I mean, even if he was dreamy I wouldn't want someone who's criteria for dating is if you have big tatas. Then he told me his friend Feliks was interested in me, and I had anatomy with him and at the time I always thought he was kind of cute but I definitely got that vibe of "totally not into you". I've been texting him now and again, and sitting with him in bio chem 2 (in which we found out we had together) but still he gives off that "ehhh" vibe to me. So who knows where that will go, if anywhere.

Tonight I have plans to hang out with Sam and her posse plus Peter (and maybe Paul?) and watch this movie called Southland Tales, which might I add looks completely stupid but a few of my friends have been freaking out about how awesome it is so I figured I would give it a try.

Okay, that's my life as of right. now.

new computer and spring break!

Spring break is next week! Yes!

Although I will be sooooo happy for when I'm done with school I have to admit I sure am going to miss vacations like spring break and month off for Christmas holiday. It will definitely be a sad day when I only get a few days off for xmas and a even more sadder day when I might actually have to do work on my birthday. Haha.

Ugh, my hair has soooo many split ends. Pfft, the universe is teaching me to want to straighten my hair. Do you guys have any helpful hints of getting rid of spit ends (besides cutting it) because quite honestly it drives me kind of nuts.

I'm at work currently and I am slightly bored... okay really bored. I figured I would have physics homework that could distract myself with, but thankfully it was incredibly easy.

School is going pretty good so far. Although I have been slightly lazy and not the best student this semester. I've done fairly well but not like 100% effort.. so I guess I better kick it into gear. I have decided though, despite my laziness this semester that I have definitely refined my study habits. When I first started college I was straight from high school where all I had to do was go to class to get an A. Plus not caring exactly what grades I got (as long as I passed) didn't help much but here at the end of my undergrad career I notice that I do spend time actually reading the text books and devoting large amount of time to finish my homework and making sure I understand it inside and out. It took me awhile to get like this but I have remembered how nice it is to get 100% on quizzes and exams and to be able to teach other people the ins and outs of school like how it was in high school.

In other news, the other day I bought a new computer! I've been saving up for a long time since I didn't want to go further into debt and I decided on a beast of a machine: 24 inch iMac with 3.06GHz Intel Core 2 Duo processor, 4GB of memory, 1TB hard drive, 8x double-layer SuperDrive, and my favorite: ATI Radeon HD 4850 512MB. It's going to be amazing.

New Years resolutions so far.

I thought I would spam out my latest update. Since I haven't really done that in ages.

Well, to be honest things there for awhile was like a nightmare. Parker started dating someone new just when I was starting to believe that he wanted to be with me again, that he dated enough other people and realized how good we had it so that he would want to date me again. Well, guess that all changed when he started dating someone new. Things were a bit dark there, and honestly I saw my future and everything I had planned for myself crumble around me. I realized that I have been pining over Parker for the last three years, and I suppose this was the last straw so I made a new years resolution to get over Parker. Those last few years I would always say "oh I should just get over him, things would be better that way, etc etc etc" but I never really meant it, well until now.

It has been about a month since my resolution, and although I know that I'm not over him yet I can feel so much better about... oh everything. I never really realized until I tried to give him up how much he was still apart of my life when he shouldn't have been. Like, for the last 9 years if I had a problem or a worry, or even just telling someone about my day, I would always go to him. I have forgotten how to cry on my own-- how to self sustain... which causes a lot of problems if the thing is bothering me is the person I'm talking to. Really, these last few years have been just bickering on top of bickering.

I am relearning how to do things on my own. Learning to be dependent again. So far I am incredibly proud of my progress. I suppose all I really had to do was set my mind to the task.

In other news, I started the new semester. This year's schedule is very nightmarish. With how my school schedule is set up, I go to school from 7am/8am-about 2 and then I work from 2-7. Basically I'm at the U campus for about 12 hours straight. It's been quite hellish, but it gives me time to work on my homework? I noticed though, when I get home from school and work I never want to do anything (like, finish my homework, study more, etc). Which might become more of a problem, like for instance I should be studying right now but I much rather watch The Office and update my blogs. Such a silly girl I am.

New Phone!

It has been ages since I've updated. Sorry about that.

Last semester I passed with top marks, getting the class high in my Ochem class and getting in the top three in my calculus class.

I'm not that excited for next semester but I calculated how much longer I have in school and only three more semesters if everything goes to plan. Then I anticipate on doing some internships living on my own for awhile, then most likely going to school out of state. I suppose I have nothing holding me back now.

In other news I lost my cellphone yesterday. The first time that's ever happened. But my new phone is quite beautiful, maroon and it flips open to a keyboard. I am quite content with it. I also think the way the menus is organized is much more efficient than my old phone's menu. The only thing that is a pain is that I lost all my contacts so, PLEASE send me a text or send me a message with your number so I can add you back!

Necklaces and iMacs.

So, I bought myself some new jewelery. Isn't it adorable? It is a envelope that has an actual removable love letter. Sooooooo cute. I can't WAIT for it to get here. Although I do kind of wish a boy would have bought it for me, but it is far too awesome for me to pass up.

So, I have decided to save up for a new imac. I calculated that in maybe 3 paychecks I could afford it and still have money left over, but I might just wait 4 paychecks (2 months) until I buy it so I won't panic that I have no money. Also, it is almost Christmas time so probably a lot of my funds will have to go to presents. I suppose we'll see. I do tend to over estimate my spending just so I wont ever overspend.

Speaking of paychecks, I got paid today! Yay! Halfway to my goal.

School is going good, well maybe not Bio chem. I have an exam Nov. 3rd and I am starting to feel kind of terrified of how much I need to know for that exam. Mechanisms of like 5 proteins, kinetics of proteins, Ordered and random proteins. Just seems like so much information and probably knowing my professor he would tell us that there is all this stuff on the exam and then just do some trivial information. Argg, so frustrating.

In other news, I am crushing hard on a certain boy. I don't really expect it to go anywhere, honestly, but it is nice to daydream and imagine myself kissing him. ;) But, I guess we'll see how it goes!

O chem exam!

So, I just realized what is one of the best feelings in the world is: getting an awesome grade on a test which is returned ON A FRIDAY.

That's right you heard it. I got a kickin' score on my O chem test. My professor thought it was super cool to torture us by talking about how the test scores were kind of low and that now was the time to learn from the exams and do better on the next three, making all of us anxious about our test scores just to LECTURE TO US. Holy smokes, I was ready to raise my hand and tell her that she was killing us here. But I got my first exam back and I got a whole 30 points HIGHER than average! Woo! I would have got more except for I was smoking crack on one of the problems and reacted the starting materials with the products. I have no idea what I was thinking on the exam!? Man, too bad I ran out of time in the last few minutes otherwise I could have gone back and double checked my answers to verify I was acting like a total crazy. But oh well, I'm not too worried about it, maybe I will go to my teacher and like plead for some pity points (because I did do in that problem what I had been doing in the last 5 problems and I guess my mind just got stuck in a rut.)

In about an hour I will get my other exam back and hopefully it doesn't kill my "got a good grade and it's friday" euphoria so I can have a totally awesome weekend!

Girl Scouts

In case you hadn't heard, I have decided to help my Mom out and be a a co-leader to her Girl Scout troop. I am the leader for the Brownie Troop, which is super small. In years past my Mom would have the brownies skip up a year and do Junior things, but now the GS organization is doing something different for each age groups. In my Mom's troop there is a group of Cadets, Juniors, and Brownies. My Mom's friend Stacey is working with the Cadets since her daughter is there, my Mom is working with the Juniors and as I said, I'm with the Brownies. I was actually quite timid about how it was going to work out. This new system requires a lot of writing, reading, and things that are kind of like homework that they're suppose to do with their families but I was surprised on how well everything worked out today. As far as I know, all of the groups are doing steps to becoming a better leader and they talk about different things according to their age levels. For instance, the Brownie's "keys to being a leader" is discovering, connecting, and taking action.

Today was our first meeting, and I was actually pretty nervous on how things were going to be. The Brownie group is pretty small: Me, my niece Alannah, and another girl named Brenna. It was kind of awkward, so since Alannah goes to a different school she always gets to Girl Scouts later than Brenna and so it was like one on one for awhile but once Alannah got there things were easier, and I think everyone had a lot of fun. What our major activity was "discovering the girl scout law" in which I cut up the girl scout law into lines and I made up a scavenger hunt in which they had to figure out nature clues to find the little tokens then we pieces the girl scout law back together. The only thing I was sad about was that I wanted to use the nice weather so I hid the tokens/law scrolls outside and then some kids came over to the church and found one of them and took it away. I mean, it was a little obvious where it was hidden, but kind of frustrating that they would see that it was taped down and still take it. Oh well, I guess. Despite the missing law scroll/token the scavenger hunt was a big hit, it made me proud that Alannah and Brenna were saying things like "I bet our activity was way more fun that yours!" to the other age groups.

Next week, our activity seems kind of lame and I wonder if they will still have fun. My Mom talked about combining girls and activities since they both kind of apply to the same kind of principles plus its UEA. So I will let you know how it goes!