New Years resolutions so far.

I thought I would spam out my latest update. Since I haven't really done that in ages.

Well, to be honest things there for awhile was like a nightmare. Parker started dating someone new just when I was starting to believe that he wanted to be with me again, that he dated enough other people and realized how good we had it so that he would want to date me again. Well, guess that all changed when he started dating someone new. Things were a bit dark there, and honestly I saw my future and everything I had planned for myself crumble around me. I realized that I have been pining over Parker for the last three years, and I suppose this was the last straw so I made a new years resolution to get over Parker. Those last few years I would always say "oh I should just get over him, things would be better that way, etc etc etc" but I never really meant it, well until now.

It has been about a month since my resolution, and although I know that I'm not over him yet I can feel so much better about... oh everything. I never really realized until I tried to give him up how much he was still apart of my life when he shouldn't have been. Like, for the last 9 years if I had a problem or a worry, or even just telling someone about my day, I would always go to him. I have forgotten how to cry on my own-- how to self sustain... which causes a lot of problems if the thing is bothering me is the person I'm talking to. Really, these last few years have been just bickering on top of bickering.

I am relearning how to do things on my own. Learning to be dependent again. So far I am incredibly proud of my progress. I suppose all I really had to do was set my mind to the task.

In other news, I started the new semester. This year's schedule is very nightmarish. With how my school schedule is set up, I go to school from 7am/8am-about 2 and then I work from 2-7. Basically I'm at the U campus for about 12 hours straight. It's been quite hellish, but it gives me time to work on my homework? I noticed though, when I get home from school and work I never want to do anything (like, finish my homework, study more, etc). Which might become more of a problem, like for instance I should be studying right now but I much rather watch The Office and update my blogs. Such a silly girl I am.

New Phone!

It has been ages since I've updated. Sorry about that.

Last semester I passed with top marks, getting the class high in my Ochem class and getting in the top three in my calculus class.

I'm not that excited for next semester but I calculated how much longer I have in school and only three more semesters if everything goes to plan. Then I anticipate on doing some internships living on my own for awhile, then most likely going to school out of state. I suppose I have nothing holding me back now.

In other news I lost my cellphone yesterday. The first time that's ever happened. But my new phone is quite beautiful, maroon and it flips open to a keyboard. I am quite content with it. I also think the way the menus is organized is much more efficient than my old phone's menu. The only thing that is a pain is that I lost all my contacts so, PLEASE send me a text or send me a message with your number so I can add you back!

Necklaces and iMacs.

So, I bought myself some new jewelery. Isn't it adorable? It is a envelope that has an actual removable love letter. Sooooooo cute. I can't WAIT for it to get here. Although I do kind of wish a boy would have bought it for me, but it is far too awesome for me to pass up.

So, I have decided to save up for a new imac. I calculated that in maybe 3 paychecks I could afford it and still have money left over, but I might just wait 4 paychecks (2 months) until I buy it so I won't panic that I have no money. Also, it is almost Christmas time so probably a lot of my funds will have to go to presents. I suppose we'll see. I do tend to over estimate my spending just so I wont ever overspend.

Speaking of paychecks, I got paid today! Yay! Halfway to my goal.

School is going good, well maybe not Bio chem. I have an exam Nov. 3rd and I am starting to feel kind of terrified of how much I need to know for that exam. Mechanisms of like 5 proteins, kinetics of proteins, Ordered and random proteins. Just seems like so much information and probably knowing my professor he would tell us that there is all this stuff on the exam and then just do some trivial information. Argg, so frustrating.

In other news, I am crushing hard on a certain boy. I don't really expect it to go anywhere, honestly, but it is nice to daydream and imagine myself kissing him. ;) But, I guess we'll see how it goes!

O chem exam!

So, I just realized what is one of the best feelings in the world is: getting an awesome grade on a test which is returned ON A FRIDAY.

That's right you heard it. I got a kickin' score on my O chem test. My professor thought it was super cool to torture us by talking about how the test scores were kind of low and that now was the time to learn from the exams and do better on the next three, making all of us anxious about our test scores just to LECTURE TO US. Holy smokes, I was ready to raise my hand and tell her that she was killing us here. But I got my first exam back and I got a whole 30 points HIGHER than average! Woo! I would have got more except for I was smoking crack on one of the problems and reacted the starting materials with the products. I have no idea what I was thinking on the exam!? Man, too bad I ran out of time in the last few minutes otherwise I could have gone back and double checked my answers to verify I was acting like a total crazy. But oh well, I'm not too worried about it, maybe I will go to my teacher and like plead for some pity points (because I did do in that problem what I had been doing in the last 5 problems and I guess my mind just got stuck in a rut.)

In about an hour I will get my other exam back and hopefully it doesn't kill my "got a good grade and it's friday" euphoria so I can have a totally awesome weekend!

Girl Scouts

In case you hadn't heard, I have decided to help my Mom out and be a a co-leader to her Girl Scout troop. I am the leader for the Brownie Troop, which is super small. In years past my Mom would have the brownies skip up a year and do Junior things, but now the GS organization is doing something different for each age groups. In my Mom's troop there is a group of Cadets, Juniors, and Brownies. My Mom's friend Stacey is working with the Cadets since her daughter is there, my Mom is working with the Juniors and as I said, I'm with the Brownies. I was actually quite timid about how it was going to work out. This new system requires a lot of writing, reading, and things that are kind of like homework that they're suppose to do with their families but I was surprised on how well everything worked out today. As far as I know, all of the groups are doing steps to becoming a better leader and they talk about different things according to their age levels. For instance, the Brownie's "keys to being a leader" is discovering, connecting, and taking action.

Today was our first meeting, and I was actually pretty nervous on how things were going to be. The Brownie group is pretty small: Me, my niece Alannah, and another girl named Brenna. It was kind of awkward, so since Alannah goes to a different school she always gets to Girl Scouts later than Brenna and so it was like one on one for awhile but once Alannah got there things were easier, and I think everyone had a lot of fun. What our major activity was "discovering the girl scout law" in which I cut up the girl scout law into lines and I made up a scavenger hunt in which they had to figure out nature clues to find the little tokens then we pieces the girl scout law back together. The only thing I was sad about was that I wanted to use the nice weather so I hid the tokens/law scrolls outside and then some kids came over to the church and found one of them and took it away. I mean, it was a little obvious where it was hidden, but kind of frustrating that they would see that it was taped down and still take it. Oh well, I guess. Despite the missing law scroll/token the scavenger hunt was a big hit, it made me proud that Alannah and Brenna were saying things like "I bet our activity was way more fun that yours!" to the other age groups.

Next week, our activity seems kind of lame and I wonder if they will still have fun. My Mom talked about combining girls and activities since they both kind of apply to the same kind of principles plus its UEA. So I will let you know how it goes!

Exam woes.

Whew, I had two exams today and I think I did alright. I apparently didn't study hard enough in Ochem.. or maybe didn't study it for speed but I didn't finish the last few problems on the exam which I know I would have got if I had more time. My bio chem test was so effing lame. I printed out the last 3 years of old exams and I could do every single problem on those exams and the trend was one graph in which you had to find out the velocity of the enzyme turn over rate, piece together a polypeptide and calculate the net charge on a polypeptide... so I was set I could do all of them in addition to have memorized 20 amino acids and misc. info from the lectures (i.e. bond angle of alpha helixes, etc) and my Professor was like "this is probably the easiest test I've ever written" so of course I was getting pumped about it. Get the exam-- and half of the things I studied for (enzyme rate, piecing polypeptides together) was NOT ON THE EXAM. I was freaking out and doing like 20 different problems involving it and alas! Nothing there. Instead he asked for some random information about which amino acids could do radical reactions which he did NOT talk about in class (and I think I got the right answer because of other chemistry classes I've taken-- theres only so many amino acids that can make a stable tertiary radical) but honestly amigo.

But I think overall, I did pretty well. Not as well as I thought I would do, but definitely above average. (Knock on wood!) I just wanted to get A's on my exams like I did on my calc exam :(

Oh, but before my Ochem class I noticed that this guy in front of me's shirt:
I thought it was pretty hilarious that this guy felt the need to advertise that he was a putz. Oh, I guess not even a putz but 20 PUTZ.

So ridiculous.

Yearbook Yourself.

So, a friend of mine stumbled upon this website called "Yearbook Yourself" and seeing him in some 70's afro, I decided that I would do myself. So, enjoy!:

This one actually reminds me of this photo I have of myself when I was about 4 years old. Exactly the same hair-do.

So, although the hair looks great in this one, the person's face shape wasn't quite the same as mine and it makes me look kind of like Sarah Jessica Parker back in the 80's.

I didn't think this one worked that well, but the hair is hilarious enough. I should really do my hair that way.

Haha, so hot, right? Mary Tyler Moore.

This one cracks me up, I imagine they added this one for anyone who wasn't white who was uploading their images, so now I know what I would look like as partially black in the 80's.

Yes, I do look straight out of Hairspray.

Haha, my sister Melissa has a picture just like this!

This one is probably my favorite which is undoubtably because a) I look normal, b) the original photo had the same face shape as mine, and c) she has almost the same hair-do as I normally do!

So, I had probably way too much fun doing this but I'd say it's totally worth it so go whip out your straight on images of yourself (which is a lot harder than it sounds) and dig into the past.